i've done soooo good at fasting today.. i'm still geting use to this live journal thing. and it feels so good that i know theres other girls like me who has the same problems. and it feels so good to write everything done. all i've had today was coffee and water i'm so proud of myself. and i walked/ ran 5miles!!! i hope i don't fuck up later tonight when i usually feel like eating.

XOXO

I feel so fat a gross like a cow.. tomorow i'm going to try my hardest to stay focused on not eating.. and i'm going to work out all day. my parent are making me go to the stupid psychtrist to get help with my throwing up but i don't need his help i can do it by myself. ahhhhhh i don't want to go he's just going to make me gain more weight i'm not even under weight yet. if anything i'm serioulsy over weight. its not like they really care they live all the way on the other side of the state. all they do is just send me money.. sometimes it just feels like they don't love me. anyways i need to find some better friends that don't always eat fast food and junk food it just makes me want it even more. or i just need some will power or something. if anyone has any tips for me please let me know... i'm going to try to sleep..

XOXO

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